Forbidden & Permissible

I feel pain when I read my previous post on how daring i am to post a slut picture or simply called gay… SUCH A UGLY ASS HOLE!! I shall delete that post after this weekend!

A big Thanks to ray who called me in the middle of the night and her words just enlightened me and changed me! Also thanks to fatso who always tell me what she had told me, but you know… I can be bit fascist! HAHAHAHA! No lah!!! Just kidding!

For people who know me ( not just merely add me in Friendster or just meet for few days and smack ass break up), I am those very quiet and shy boy. When friends are talking, you will see me walk behind! Whenever people do things, you will see me I am always the follower.

HELL THAT IS NOT THE TRUE ME!

In-fact, I can did Lot better, lots better!

During the camp, the hyper active ray manage to guide the very “on” campers ( I really miss them lot). As for me, I will be always hiding behind her! Excuse me! I am a guy and I know I can do better than her!

* Don;t slap me , Ray!

Honesty, during the whole camp, I feel like shouting at ALL the campers to treat this camp as a camp and not chalet. It is only i hide it inside, don’t dare to shout at them. Alright I am from NPCC last time but I failed to be in the training group, i get posted as welfare head! So you can say…I am bloody noob in commanding people!

Think again…I join Takewando since primary three and got a junior black belt when I am primary six! Then, I can shout at people older than me ” knock it down”, HOW COME I just don’t have the balls to do it now!

Back to the camp…

Seriously, I always tell myself, this camp lack of discipline and how much I wish got some one will enforce on it! THAT SOME ONE IS THE ONE WHO IS PONDERING! Argh!

The thing need to be done, is to be daring! Really daring! Or just put it simply, I want the guys to learn!

Secondary school friends and some poly friends all know I am a very funny guy! Is damn funny! I can dance in the public, say vulgarities on the train and have different funny facial expression! But why the Akatsuki or my classmates know it yet?

They all see me as those quiet quiet, always do homework and then go home…WHY! Cause I never show it out to them! And why I never show it out to them…is cause I don’t want disgrace!

“Disgusting, er xin!” trust me ever since i heard from girls whom I crush on…it some how change my entire personality.

In terms of looks…

Sick of repeating myself…ALL MY SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS WHO VIST MY BLOG! TAG IT In My tag box! Saying how ugly I am back in secondary school! I grew up in a full of insulting secondary school life! People call me mo Peng, Pimple boy, Ugly, Shameless whatever, this actually cause me feel inferior!

Once, a secondary school friend of mine say I look better than last time and look shuai! I don’t believe him but am i really that good looking already?

I feel inferior why I not as good looking as my friend is! BUt some how, because of their criticisim, I am what I am today! Not saying i am handsome now, is at least I look presentable!

I always have the shadow and feeling girls saying i am disgusting! Whenever there are friends gathering, I will sense it!

ZHI CONG WAKE UP MAN!!! You are what you are, nothing to hide from people! I know my sexual orientation has been many people concern, but seriously, people will accept who you are! I know I am gentle, more feminine but perhaps this make me have a better personality like caring, understanding and sensitive.

I AM A STRAIGHT! and I want to be a straight even I knew myself I got the potential to be ! I know I like girls and how much I want to have a loving relationship and yes I want to get marry! I got think of how many children I will have in the future and how fortunate my wife will be ! Like my father, i will cook for my family delicate home cuisine!

” I promise her I will marry her at RItz Calton!” THIS IS NOT JUST Merely SAY for fun ! IS TRUE!

So How to bloody hell change my gentleness…

DARING! DARE TO DO THINGS! IT IS THAT DETERMINE WHAT IS A TRUE MAN! I hope I will learn all this from NS!

So to Ray or whoever always wanted to tell me this but no chance, let me tell you now…I shall be a true leo, a lion that roar and not meow! A clever person, has good leadership and

DO something great!

I look forward working with the Akatsuki for the next project. I look forward too!

After 4 years breaking up with my that particular “unglam” first date, I am considered either a shy dater or I am just too damn indecisive. My last date ended with me in the toilet, squating infront the well-polished ivory toilet bowl vomiting out my 3 days dinner.

How could she liked someone who is a senile ( talked to himself) and worst, uglier than me 1000 times! Eee yucks!!! All this results friends laughing at me throughout our 3 months relationship! Alas, i feel damn horrible when I realise I actually dared to hug a Golem at Esplanade then!

:: MapleStory Golem::

Better put aside my horrendous reminiscent

I have come to realize that being single is a lot like being at a buffet, there is a smorgasbord of single types to choose from, they come in all shapes, interests and sizes, there are the big ones, the Washing Board Ones, the bitchy ones, the tall, the sporty ones, Chanel perfume smelling ones, the ones you wish to spend your entire life with, etc.

ADVERT OF MYSELF!!!

Whoever and ever have crushes or naughty thoughts on me…which category I belong to? Hmm…

If your guy likes being under the sun, getting pumped, rocking hard and having a large wooden stick in his hands, then you are dating “The Dragon Boater”. The Dragon Boater is a new breed of fitness fanatic; he is an average fit, tanned guy that gyms on the weekdays but come the weekends he is out there slapping on some tanning lotion, wearing the team colors, huffing, pumping and training for the next regatta.

TA DA! I am not the dragon Boater! Seriously, I am so jealous of thier muscular physique. But hey! Would you ever wanted to spend your romantic days with a hardcore sports addict!“Sorry, I got no time for dinner as I am too tired after the hell traning”
“I would rather you buy me a pair of Andrew Christian Swimming trunks than a box of chocolate”

Alright, stop my stereotyping on the dragon boates!

I would considered myself “The Instant Analysis” Guy, type of guy who after greeting and a handshake, he goes immediately into conducting an interview with questionnaire already preset in his mind.

Even before the starters arrive, he has already summed up your aesthetic score and would then react accordingly; if you fail then all you’ll get is a dinner and one liner answers.

As the main course finishes, he would have already matched up your likes to his likes and would have already found if the two interests were compatible; from here you should be able to detect a slight change of attitude towards you.

By dessert the results would be out, if he sees possibilities then it would mean a walk after the meal to nowhere just to chat, a trip to his place for a romp

or the night ends with just a walk to the station where you part ways, with him either becoming distant or never replying your msn, sms, emails. What ever happened to just getting to know each other?Any takers?

Currently, I am utterly mesmerised by the girl in this MV

So sad can, the MV

-Adieu-

You know what?I began falling in love with her

Secretly reading her blog
Thanks for saying I not look like those horny guys few months back to a friend of mine
Your eyes are great, can see I am a good man
She is cute
She is pretty

Though we only talked to each other for only 2 times, it is only until yesterday I am fallng in love with you

We took different specialization so never have chance same class with you

I apologise for expressing my love through blogging. I feel much much better now.

Falling in love make me feel blissful.